True Existentialism

Osho - The man is a genius.

Its taken me three months to get through reading 'The tantra experience' and I have now 'embarked upon a new journey' titled 'Courage-The Joy of Living Dangerously'.

I am truly reading the book with an open mind. You need that -- an open mind. Otherwise one would keep the book down after 2 pages and label the man a fruitcake.

'When one is a Christian , a Mohammedan or a Hindu , one is like an ostrich - with your head burried in the ground' . Thats how the book starts . Like i said, to get through 200 pages of it you need an open mind and a lot of patience.

Having gotten through about half the book , the past week has been eventful. i've gone on a Buddha Bar trip . (Spiritual music , sure dee , thats where all the peace comes from . )

I even made a tape of the same for the boyfriend . This is me trying to increase positive energy in the cosmos.

Sat by myself waiting for Nina and Chippy at the ledge. Was getting insights on a new way of living. Some first years come up to me. Made fun of what i was reading. So what if the man says 'love is a rare flowering'. I try to explain one has not to be gramatically correct to make immense sense. They laughed their heads of anyway . Got back to reading . The first thing I read - People can laugh at you, it will do them good -- laughter is always good medicine , healthful. The man has an answer to everything. Healthy , surely thats what he meant.

Osho Gyan - 'If you love someone , give him infinite space. Youre very being is just a space for him to grow in, to grow with. The mind interferes and tries to posses the person, then love is destroyed.' Heres where the boyfriend enters scene again. Didnt call him the entire day , he hasnt called either .Thats me giving him infinite space Will meditate on this fact . Arbit. Thats what the word 'infinte' is.

Wonder how long the peace, calm and positive energy will last. Lets see how long before I want a new cell phone with a camera . I havent come to the chapter about letting go of material desires yet.